OMFG. You’re hook on too me!? I don’t get why. I don’t wanna hurt you, but you keep telling me how much you like/love me. We’ve recently just talked. I don’t get how you grew this much feeling for me. Not to be mean, but I explain what I’m afraid what will happen .. How am I suppose to lose feeling if you keep doing this .. omg.
It sucks how it all ended up like this. Our smiling conversations went too weird awkward short replies .. Didn’t really expect this to happen.
Its tough holding on. You are everything I’d ask for. You’re perfect in my eyes, but we have so much things blocking us from each other. The fact that it’s tough for the two of us, I wish you’d stay in my life. Knowing how hard it would be because every moment we shared I loved smiling too, losing you to another person will make me regret for doing this .. But I can’t tie you down because I want you to live for a person who can accept all of you.
Here goes! Tired of assumptions coming up to my mind. Hate how I can’t trust people anymore because of the past. Tired of building hope that we will get to see each other. Tired of everything distance comes across too. Emotionally can’t understand where the next will lead me or would even try to keep me.
I wish I can show right on front of you doorstep and just look forward to your huge ass smile. Then just grab you and give you a long warm tight hug. Stare in your eyes and kiss your soft lips. Watch your smile get bigger as we kiss and just know how much we love each other. I’d like that right now ..
Its so weird how all my conversations with girls get all sexual. SEXUAL IS ALWAYS THE FUCKING subject now .. What happen to the conversation to getting to know the person more and wanting to figure them not so easily? I’m not saying its good or bad, but I’d like to have a harder girl ..
hmm I’d like to know how my life will turn out. Who will be that girl I will get down on one knee for? What are gonna be my children names? What will I be working up as? I’d like to know where my life be headed toward .. I’m tired of feeling stuck with not know what to do next ..
Before I die. I want to be able to know I saved a persons life. I wanna be happy I lived for a purpose. Either if it just something simple or taking a bullet for anybody. I’d like to see someone reaction that someone will always be by their sides and not to give up on things. I’d like to help someone gain the understanding of how precious a life is.
I just feel used sometimes. I’m always there when you need me, but when I need you, you don’t have time. I like helping people out, but it isn’t fun when you can’t have the help back when you need it.
